[ Of course they do. But it doesn’t make it any easier. He shouldn’t make life for anyone any harder than he already has. They already hurt one person they cared about, so they don’t want to make that same mistake again.
They draw their legs in just a bit, to give her more room. ]
[Though she surely means it in a different way than Sifrin does. The might be downplaying or deferring, but her echo of the same sentiment is intended as a nudge. There was no trouble caused at all. Water, when disturbed, settles back into its form quickly enough, and no one will ever see what grazed it.]
You don't want to miss the rest of the show, do you? [It's too bad the situation makes it so she can't tilt his head up so his gaze can't stay fixed and turned away.
[ Right. The recording. Wondering where and how to file this moment, Siffrin turns back towards the TV, focusing on the musical number. The stage direction is great, and the singing is wonderful, too.
But last time they watched a musical, and now they're watching a musical and what if she wants to watch something else but they're hogging the TV? This is definitely selfish, isn't it?
After some minutes of silent fretting, they turn their head back towards her. Play it cool, Siffrin! ]
[That gets Cantarella's eyes to leave the screen and turn back to Siffrin. She cocks her head, thinking he might not be asking the question he really wants to loose.]
Why do you ask? If it's not to your tastes, you may simply say so. I won't be offended.
[ She's enjoying herself! That's good! She probably likes performances as well, and they just happened to be there. They agree that it's a good compromise to make.
With a small nod, Siffrin returns towards the TV. ]
[Well...She does seem interested in the performance, especially any numbers that showcase dance choreography. There's an obvious glint in her eyes when she watches those large, showy performances.
It's a show to savor, so she waits a while before even thinking about interrupting it again. She leans forward a little before glancing over.]
Are you all right, dear? The last few days carry a heavy weight.
[ Siffrin glances back at her when she asks the question, wringing their gloved hands under their cloak.
(You try not to think about how you wish that something real could touch you. Even if it does cause you pain. At least the pain reminds you that you’re real.) ]
I’m… I’m okay. Just… been having a hard time sleeping, I guess.
[Would they like to know? She debates it quietly for a moment.]
Is it because you would find it more comforting knowing that something was really there? The uncertainty, for me, makes it easier and easier for doubt to creep into the hairline cracks...like a cold draft.
[ Of course they knew what they meant, but to have it spelled it out for him is... shameful, in a way. Comforting, in another. They nod, hiding into their cloak. ]
I don't know what to trust.
[ What if he has suddenly lost his mind? Who would be able to prove him otherwise? ]
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[ Of course they do. But it doesn’t make it any easier. He shouldn’t make life for anyone any harder than he already has. They already hurt one person they cared about, so they don’t want to make that same mistake again.
They draw their legs in just a bit, to give her more room. ]
It’s not a big deal.
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[Though she surely means it in a different way than Sifrin does. The might be downplaying or deferring, but her echo of the same sentiment is intended as a nudge. There was no trouble caused at all. Water, when disturbed, settles back into its form quickly enough, and no one will ever see what grazed it.]
You don't want to miss the rest of the show, do you? [It's too bad the situation makes it so she can't tilt his head up so his gaze can't stay fixed and turned away.
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[ Right. The recording. Wondering where and how to file this moment, Siffrin turns back towards the TV, focusing on the musical number. The stage direction is great, and the singing is wonderful, too.
But last time they watched a musical, and now they're watching a musical and what if she wants to watch something else but they're hogging the TV? This is definitely selfish, isn't it?
After some minutes of silent fretting, they turn their head back towards her. Play it cool, Siffrin! ]
Do you... uh... like this?
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Why do you ask? If it's not to your tastes, you may simply say so. I won't be offended.
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[ This, at least, is genuine. ]
I just thought... that maybe you would want to do something that, uh... you want?
[ And now that they've said it, they feel like a total dumbass. Great job, Siffrin! ]
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I am.
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[ She's enjoying herself! That's good! She probably likes performances as well, and they just happened to be there. They agree that it's a good compromise to make.
With a small nod, Siffrin returns towards the TV. ]
siffrin i just groaned out loud
It's a show to savor, so she waits a while before even thinking about interrupting it again. She leans forward a little before glancing over.]
Are you all right, dear? The last few days carry a heavy weight.
looks away. also cw for mild self harm allusion
[ Siffrin glances back at her when she asks the question, wringing their gloved hands under their cloak.
(You try not to think about how you wish that something real could touch you. Even if it does cause you pain. At least the pain reminds you that you’re real.) ]
I’m… I’m okay. Just… been having a hard time sleeping, I guess.
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Or is it this damnable feeling of never being left quite alone?
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[ The response is blurted out like a frustrated grumble. ]
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(Oh stars, now look what you’ve done.)]
Sorry, I uh. I don’t know what I meant by that.
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[Would they like to know? She debates it quietly for a moment.]
Is it because you would find it more comforting knowing that something was really there? The uncertainty, for me, makes it easier and easier for doubt to creep into the hairline cracks...like a cold draft.
[Best to just be on guard against them, always.]
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[ Of course they knew what they meant, but to have it spelled it out for him is... shameful, in a way. Comforting, in another. They nod, hiding into their cloak. ]
I don't know what to trust.
[ What if he has suddenly lost his mind? Who would be able to prove him otherwise? ]